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| last night my friends and i went to the park to talk. we were able to bring back what we had and stuff. it was really fun talking with them. whenever we're out in the park we sit on a certain bench and gaze at the stars. orion caught my attention haha. of course you know orion? haha. anyway, the point of my entry is actually to tell you guys that whenever i'm far from home, i hate star gazing. i get home sick. it's a constant reminder that i should go home as soon as possible because i'm missing a lot. isn't that great? haha. i sound so melodramatic. well, i am. haha. my better friends know that. stars, aww.
anyway, prom's making me have sleepless nights.it's very stressful. yes it's only a night but come to think of it who knows what will happen to the prom? come on, preparation is hard. on the other hand it helps us not to cram. har har. unless you want end up spending a NIGHT with a person you don't really know. | | |
| okay so what now? haha. i just want to let you know that i feel like blogging tonight. i actually told my friend that i'm going to disconnect at exactly 11:30 but what time is it? harhar. anyway, nix's blog inspired me to blog after a long time. i've read her "madramang" entry but to tell you the truth i can very much RELATE with it. haha.
during free times with my friends i really can't help but sing and talk about pathetic things. weird but true. i realized that most of us think about this. after "the talk" everyone's sad na. awww
"when will it really be me?" ugh. haha.
i'm soo unpredictable and weird. i can't even understand myself. lol. i would just like to share these moments i have to you! haha. sometimes when i'm alone here at home i just spend the day listening music. fyi, i'm listening to "a playlist" only. 10-15 songs. i just repeat it. harhar. anyway, i think about this when-will-it-be-me-stuff. thinking on why not me i can give better than her but who the hell knows pero there's this thing that makes us want this person MORE. even if we're really trying to forget him dba. para bang when you're trying NOT to think about this person the world becomes smaller for the both of you. the more that you'll see him. even if infront of him you're pretending that the day that you saw each other is the worsest day ever pero when he gets far from you you'll remember every single detail of what happened. haha. sighhh
having these boring days make me reveal myself more. good side of these pathetic days is that i'm learning to elaborate on how i feel. \m/ maybe after a week of consistent blog entries you'll see the desperate part of me.
anyway, i'm very sleepy! | | |
| if given the chance to count how many times I have deleted the words that I have been trying to put here, believe me, I'll never finish. there's this thing that holds me back, that pulls me away. weird feeling that hinders me in expressing myself. in expressing what I REALLY feel.
to be honest I really wanted things to be put here I just don't know how. urghh. | | |
| lately, i have been looking for prom gowns from the internet just to have an idea on what gown looks best on me. vain!
"ideas" i got from the net:
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